rain essence with opened eyes.

i don't know what the 40 have no shoes means exactly. maybe it was a literal statement.

but i deem that 40 have no where to stand and no mind to believe they can do it on their own.

for the change of at least 40 of those people, lets believe.

-i've done a lot of wrong things but i swear i'm a believer-

(the river - good charlotte)

FREEDOM WRITERS

this is why i sometimes think of becoming a journalist.
movies like these just gives you so much to pour on, you know.
loved every bit of it :) p.s. mario's in it *smiles*

i wanna try and find "The Freedom Writer's Diary" and "The Diary of Anne Frank" so badly now.

Miep Gies (as from The Diary of Anne Frank in Freedom Writers) :
I am not a hero. I did what i had to do because it was the right thing to do. We are all ordinary people. Even an ordinary secretary or a housewife, or even a teenager, can within their own small ways, turn on a small light.... in a dark room.

captured for keeps.

things in the gutter.

1. i missed the form 5 graduation 'cause of my never-ending mucous. :(
2. i have YET to see 'This Is It'.
3. my high E string broke.
4. exam is still not overr.

things on the go

1. the nerve-wrecking exam papers are considered over. less livita, less nescafe, less studying!
2. mum said she'll go get ALL the guitar strings replaced. i can already picture it's fresh tune :)
3. i'm gonna start dancing like shit again after exams.
4. i got narrowed questions for my upcoming accounts exam. lols shhhh....
5. i'm gonna be watching movies everyday with my cousins whom are coming down for holiday.
(i hope that makes up if i never get to watch This Is It in the cinema)
6. i've got so many undone tunes i can work on after exams.

i feel pretty good now. gonna start getting whacked out before SPM next year. before i start making private deals with Redbull and Nescafe for life.

- they don't care how they get there as long as they get somewhere they know...-
(rock and roll - eric hutchinson)

even in my dream, you said her name.

again, diwali was awesome. thanks to those who came and made it worth while :)

first week of exam is over.

i died of anxiety. and there's two more weeks to go. ***k.

the only thing that's keeping me sane is that i'm writing. ideas are flooding in and i'm easily inspired these days :)

and i know my blog is dying, not only are the posts barely breathing but i myself have no interest to blog these days. even tumblr, gosh how i loved tumblr when i first started off. but now i don't really give a rat's ass about tumblarity or whether people who follow me are gonna like my post.

don't even get me started on twitter.

i just feel like i need a break from all of this. i don't know.

-we've only got 86,400 seconds in a day, to turn it all around or throw it all away-

(live like we're dying - the script)

p.s. if you don't listen to The Script, you need to, like NOW.

i lost all sense of misery.

and diwali this year was one i shall reminisce. :)

i'll talk through some cheap quality pictures.

Pre-Diwali

it's totally henna time.

p.s. first time doing henna for diwali, thanks to those who excited me into doing it :)





was gambling that night. this is my first time getting that set and i WHOA'ed EVERYONE :)

and here begins thee fireworks at my grandma's at night.

that's sharen. where's my t-shirt shereen?

that's davin. the one who lost ms. dauber.

oh yeah.


DIWALI. the day.

only picture i got with my brother. damn boy not even looking at the camera. :(

cam-whoring sikit, awaiting delicious food at my granma's place :)

that's jasy masie and the 'american' baby, aneesha :)

gurvir and manvir. big bollywood heroes la...XD

that's manvir :)

reina, the accomplice, the alliance-keeper :)

at my other granma's hse, that's davin trying to mix punch. note : *tries*

shereen again.

and that's the little ballerina, sherineel :) i didn't get a picture with her bro, shermit. poor boy was sick.

Post-Diwali

awaiting more food at granma's place. HELL YEAHH.

friggin' adorable cousin prannveer. the only one who chased after balloons like a little puppy.:D

yeah i tried to do this. couldn't.

instead, i watched my husband's movie for the millionth time :)

last gambling session of the festival.

sorry i kind of forgot to take pictures of the food i was eating. too busy EATING la duhh :)

had like 3 homemade thosai for lunch on the first day,

2 and a half pizza's for dinner,

3 homemade thosai's again for lunch on post-diwali and two for dinner.

why the obsession?

'cause it was the best i've ever tasted topped off with spiced chilli chicken and creamy veggie with lime punch to quench it's salvation for more.

no kidding.

happy diwali yaww :)

- some mexican tune in the background-

(just felt like it)

i want to just sit in a cafe and never come out.

exam is next week. damn.

sorry i haven't been blogging much lately, occupied with *sigh* stuff.

will blog more after exams though, which is like what? almost a month from now?...

oh and to all you lucky bastards who just finished PMR, damn you guys mannn.

but hey...been there, done that. :)

off to tumblr but before that, here's another doodle to satisfy my craving fingers.

carpe di'em. :)

-i had a bad day again...she said i would not understand-
(bad day - fuel)

as quick as i'd like love to be.

quick update

1. charleen's party was awesome...no kidding :)

2. actually looking forward to deepavali this year.

3. i have a current addiction with post-it's. i have no idea why.

4. and i'm about to watch Ghosts of Girlfriend's past.

p.s. have been studying like a mad cow, hopefully things entered in my grey matter. *sigh*

lets all take a little break shall we? i doodle when i'm on quick breaks. what do you do?

-this is your life...is it everything you dreamed it would be...?-
(thi is your life - switchfoot)

swinging with longer hair to get caught in the wind would be nicer :)

i didn't log in for 4 days.
it's a hell of an achievement for me 'cause i normally i can hardly go two days without downloading something off the net.

and the weirdest part is, i had all the time to use my laptop the day before yesterday but chose not too. i guess i got tired of all the heap on the WWW.
i stumbled upon this quote once "if i die, i think i would have made a bigger impact online than in real life"
i'm not saying i'm at that extend, but i'd hate to see myself do so.

picture courtesy of Gurmeet Singh (next awesome photographer :)
i only did the lame editing. :D

-...you were the last good thing about this part of town-
(grand theft autumn - fall out boy )

i've watched this a kazillion times already. definitely worth the 2am blogging :D

i can't be dependant. i WON'T.

so this holidays were'nt that bad. i saw a couple of movies, ate a HELL LOT.
i even got my own duit raya *smiles*

i just think that this is the first holidays i actually got a wake up call from my parents. for the first time in my life my mum said "don't la always on the computer...go study also"
and my dad with his own words "i know you study, but you don't study like you used to"
that really hurt because i know it's my fault that i haven't been studying all that much lately.

so yeah from now on, i am going to cut down on blogger, on tumblr, on twitter, on facebook, on omegle and on 4shared because this is what i need to do. i need to start googling my future, and i need to start working on it.

my dad said
"we have to be prepared for the worst. i'm not saying you're not going to excell for your SPM but i don't want to get a culture shock if ever you don't, i want you to be prepared for something else. it's ok if you don't achieve as high as you want, you have to know there are other options out there and that you have to be able to want them."

i won't dissapoint you. i promise.

ask it why.

just felt like killing time :D

off to watch final destination(4) tomorroooow :D

-you feel like you're able to live past the moment...-
(can't move on - automatic loveletter)